I don't think I can do this much longer.
Today is the captain's dinner for the relay for life, and yet again I can not go. I can't because not one person was willing to go with me.
I'm sick and bloody tired of all this. I'm so tired of people telling me i should get out of the house and then never wanting to do anything with me. Oh I'm sorry, I mean "can't" do anything. Bullfuckingshit. No one is ever that busy.
I doubt I'll even go to the Relay now. I will hand in the $ on bank day and wish them good luck.
From now on, I will not ask anyone to do anything with me. I will not ask anyone for their help. I will just fade away in the background, and hopefully disappear altogether.