I don't think I can do this much longer.
Today is the captain's dinner for the relay for life, and yet again I can not go. I can't because not one person was willing to go with me.
I'm sick and bloody tired of all this. I'm so tired of people telling me i should get out of the house and then never wanting to do anything with me. Oh I'm sorry, I mean "can't" do anything. Bullfuckingshit. No one is ever that busy.
whatevs.
I'm done.
I doubt I'll even go to the Relay now. I will hand in the $ on bank day and wish them good luck.
From now on, I will not ask anyone to do anything with me. I will not ask anyone for their help. I will just fade away in the background, and hopefully disappear altogether.
... in the face of cancer, we are learning to live one bear hug at a time ...
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I say time to make new friends! :(
ugh. I'm so sorry that people keep wimping out on you and canceling plans- wish we lived closer than IDaho...
I get the same thing....excuses. I attribute it to the fact that most people just don't know what to say to me in person, it's easier to call me or email me. It doesn't help that I get all pissy when things are going well for other people and they don't appreciate it. I especially LOVE it when they complain about their husbands and have had several choice words for them! Oh well, screw em. If they can't be there for us in our real times of need, they were never friends anyway.
Ter, I hate that I "get" you. Nobody should feel this kind of pain.
♥,Lilly
I get the same thing....excuses. I attribute it to the fact that most people just don't know what to say to me in person, it's easier to call me or email me. It doesn't help that I get all pissy when things are going well for other people and they don't appreciate it. I especially LOVE it when they complain about their husbands and have had several choice words for them! Oh well, screw em. If they can't be there for us in our real times of need, they were never friends anyway.
Ter, I hate that I "get" you. Nobody should feel this kind of pain.
♥,Lilly
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