Friday, November 14, 2008

Wheeling Around

Today, Bear sat in his chair most of the time that I was there. That was good. He was still in the chair when I left. He wanted to see if he could make it through supper without too much pain. I left earlier because it's getting dark earlier. I don't like driving in the dark but it's worse when he constantly worries about accidents, so I just leave so as not to worry him any more than need be. Of course it doesn't take long before it gets dark and I'm not even half way home before it does.

He did not sleep very well last night so he was tired. We mostly went up and down the hall with me pushing his chair. He doesn't feel comfortable to go off the floor even though he's more than welcome to. We also sat in the lounge for a while and looked at the view. From that view we can see our old apartment and sometimes I wonder if we should have stayed there. But we moved because it was no place to have a baby and well, we all know how that story turned out. (and if you don't, you can read babybear's story on my other blog by clicking "babybear" in my tag list).

I noticed on my way out that the parking prices are going up in a few days. As if things aren't expensive enough.

I bought some onion rings at the cafeteria. Most of the food isn't worth paying the outrageous prices for. But at least Bear saw me eat so he won't have to wonder or worry.

The pup is jealous of the laptop. She was climbing on me as I was trying to type this.

The house feels big and empty. And lonely. This is the rest of my life.

11 comments:

Joc(e) said...

*sigh* Thinking of you...many many hugs!

Shea said...

(((HUGS))) Ter.

Jo said...

Ter... another new normal. *sigh*

HUGS!!

steviegator2004 said...

I am so glad that he is sitting up so much...that is better for his circulation...Hang in there Terri

Kristy said...

Thinking (and praying) for you.......

EricaD said...

Thinking of you & Bear and sending my love and prayers...

Stargirl said...

This has to be hard for you, but know that you are not alone. There are many people praying and pulling for you and your bear. I know that this is small, but I am praying for you. Sending you much love and faith.

Kim said...

Terri and Big Bear,

I can say no words now that would comfort you both. Just please know my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Kim (TCF - Kimmie667)

Sarah C. said...

((HUGS))

Dewitt Family "Lovin Life" said...

I heard about your journey through my friend Heather (mom4life.com) I know there are no words that can even put a dent into what you are experiencing. I am praying. God will raise your faith to even this if you allow Him!

Totallyscrappy said...

I just dropped by to say that I am praying for you and your busband.