Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I'm On The Edge, Barely Hanging, God Is Pushing Me Over

if one more goddamn thing goes wrong I am seriously going to kill myself and even though I know that if i did that it would mean I won't get to see my baby girl and her daddy again but at this point anything is better than this HELLHOLE i'm currently living!!!

so my new glasses? can't see with them.

my newish hearing aid? keeps breaking - broke again this week. finally the hearing centre said they'll send it to be fixed but I have to get there first.

and now?
my fucking car won't start!

which means I have to cancel my doctor's appointment only an hour prior to it which means I'll get charged for it.

FUCK!

20 comments:

April said...

I'm so sorry, Ter...wish I could help!

Ali said...

I am SO SORRY you are having such a rough time!! I am saying a prayer for you right now! Big gigantic {{{hugs}}} from Ali!

Kristina P. said...

Oh, Ter, I am so sorry. You deserve to cuss and swear and to throw a tantrum. I hope things get better.

*Just Jen* said...

Take a deep breath. Virtual hugs and prayers are coming your way!

sandy said...

I am so sorry that things are going wrong for you! I really wish I could be there to give you a hug, but this will have to do {{{hugs}}}

Hang in there!

Jen Sue Wild said...

Hugs, I hope your day gets bettr..

AnnaMarie said...

The bereaved should be exempt from daily life shit since it takes so little to push us over the edge. Your week sounds awful Ter! I'm sorry everything is breaking all at the same time.

At least try to get those charges reversed since you had extenuating circumstances preventing you from getting to your appointment.

Wishing you some peaceful moments where NOTHING GOES WRONG!!!!

Furious Mom said...

I am sorry your feeling so bad. I hope things start looking up for you. The lord only gives us what he knows we can handle, thats what I believe anyway! Hugs!

Teri said...

Gosh, Ter - I'm so, so sorry. I sure hope things start looking a little less bleak for you really soon...thanks for letting me know you're still around - I've been around and lurking, too (although I make no excuses for not commenting - sorry!) (((HUGS)))

Yaya said...

Okay, wow, this is a really bad week. I'm sorry everything is going wrong. Please don't kill yourself. :(

Joc(e) said...

(((HUGS))) That really stinks. I hope the car issue is something like a bad battery or alternator...the alternator might not be cheap but it is better than some other major problem. Good luck sweetie...

Shea said...

Oh Ter. I hate weeks like that. I hope something good happens soon. Please don't do anything crazy. (((HUGS)))

Laurie in Ca. said...

I have been trying to think of something to encourage you for this week you are having and I have to agree with you, it sucks big time. It just seems to come in huge waves doesn't it? I am so sorry Ter. You are trying so hard to keep positive and I encourage you to continue. You bless many here without even realizing it. I am one who is blessed by you and I am praying for you to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel before the week is out. Maybe it is time for a good cry too, it always seems to let off pressure. I am praying sweetie.

Love and Hugs, Laurie
PS. The language doesn't offend me one bit:) Been known to use it often myself.

Caitlin said...

You deserve to cuss. This all just sucks!

Anjeny said...

Aww Ter, I'm sorry. I don't know problems to come in either pairs or group.

Jenners said...

Cuss away if it helps. Fling the glasses onto a soft pillow (so they don't break). Scream. Break things. Kick a tire. But stick around ... you'll see them in time and I know it probably feels like one thing after another but stick around.

Rocksee said...

something has to start going right here soon ter.. hopefully it will start turning around.

Just A Mom (Call me JAM for short) said...

I'm so sorry things are piling up for you like this. Hang on and hang in there Ter. I know you are trying. I'm thinking of you and hoping that some brightness shines on you soon.

Bee and Rose said...

Ter, I am so sorry it all seems like a big giant crapfest right now. I am sending you lots of hugs and prayers to help you through. Don't give up, my sweet friend!

(and I am a firm believer in therapy cussing....)

DivineChoice said...

When life is being a bitch, you got all rights to swear. I pray that your burden becomes lighter and more bearable. Big hug!!!