Seriously, what's the point of me continuing to live, there's nothing to live for. Why bother? I am never going to be happy.
Now don't you be sending me any messages pleading with me to not do anything, you already know I'm not going to, I can't. I won't risk not being allowed to see my family again if I do that. I won't risk not being able to get into heaven.
I just don't see the point of living though. Seriously, what's the point? Why am I still here? I want to know. I want to know why my family has gone away and why I'm stuck here all alone. Even the pup doesn't want to be around me anymore and spends almost all her time on the opposite floor from me.
I'm tired. I'm alone. I'm so frickin' sick of being alone all the time. Where is everyone who said they'd be there for me? I don't see anyone here.
And please don't take offense but I'm tired of talking to the computer.