I'm so fricking emotional right now. Everything is pissing me off. Everybody is pissing me off. I want to run away from home but I realize that won't work because the one person I would like to get away from is myself and every where I go there I am. I can't get away from myself.
Lately, it seems that no one is even close to understanding anything I say. It's like the words that come out of my mouth must not be English anymore. I feel like I'm repeating myself over and over again and no one's GETTING it.
And it doesn't even have to be words. I am probably going to tick people off and loose readers but in a way I don't care... but on my other blog I posted a picture of the flooding that is creeping up on my back yard. Most of the comments I've gotten so far are telling me how pretty it is. PRETTY? I like the grass better. I prefer the water to be where water is supposed to be. Not on the grass nearing my yard. The risk of my yard / house flooding is not that high but what with all the crap happening to me lately, it wouldn't surprise me one bit!
But it just sets me off? You know? Or are people just trying to be nice? Are they trying to put a positive spin on things so that maybe I won't be so damn negative??
It's probably a good thing that I haven't gone back to work or anything yet. I'd probably bash in a few heads, mess up a few faces, and perhaps beat some poor unlucky punk to a bloody pulp!
At least, in my mind.
I don't know what's going on with me. Maybe it's lack of sleep. I'm going to bed earlier but that doesn't mean I'm sleeping or that I'm sleeping well when I do.
I'm cranky. I'm hungry too. I miss having real meals.
I'm so tired of being by myself all the time. ALL.THE.TIME.
My poor doggie could use a break from me too. She's so anxious all the time too. Must be like walking on eggshells to live with me.