Well, I don't fit in at SHARE anymore. I am not just a bereaved parent anymore, I'm a bereaved wife too. I am not TTC and I'm not Parenting After A Loss.
TCF is for parents of children who have died at any age, and while they are a good group, I never really fully felt comfortable with TCF, at least the local chapter. And again, I'm not just a bereaved parent, but a bereaved wife.
Where do I belong? Really, how many people at my age (33) have lost both their spouse and their child?
I don't belong anywhere.
All my friends are married and / or have children.
I don't belong there either.
All my life I have been the abnormal one because of my hearing loss. I was the only deafie in a school of hearing kids for most of my growing up years.
Why couldn't I have had even a bit of a normal life?
I am having a bad day.
I feel so alone.