4 months since you left me

Dear Bear,

It has been 4 months since you left me. I'm still waiting for you to come show me the way.

I miss you so much... there are no words to express just how much I miss you and babybear.

I miss your smile
your laugh
your odd sense of humor
I miss you annoying me
I miss cooking together
and eating at the kitchen table.
I miss chatting with you about my day
and hearing about yours.
I miss watching you play with emmie
no one could get her to run like you do
I miss your work ethnic
and how you tried to motivate me
I miss you
I miss snuggling on the couch together,
even if you complained I was squishing you.
I miss your enthusiasm
I even miss your practical jokes
and playing games of Skip-Bo.
I miss planning our future together,
even after our hearts were broken.
I miss you taking care of me
I miss you being next to me at night
I miss you coming home
and I miss you being home when I come home
I miss having someone to talk to
I miss using my voice
I miss hearing your voice too
I miss your silliness,
the way you crawled on the floor pretending to be a snake,
or the way you pretended to be a growling bear
I missed the way you made me laugh til I choked
I miss "beating you up" and how it made you chuckle.
I miss you rolling your eyes when I sang kiddie songs to you
I miss the little notes you left me every day
even if they were just saying when you'll be home.
I wish I kept them.
I miss waving good bye with you signing "I Love You"
I miss all the little things you did for me, and with me.
I miss how you remembered our little girl
and brought me little bears in her honor.
I miss your blue eyes
and holding your hand.
I miss how much you loved holidays
and I miss how you were stuck in the 80's.
I miss going places with you
even just to the grocery store.
I miss sitting in the passenger seat of the car.
I miss folding your clothes
I miss just being with you
hugging you and being hugged.
loving you and being loved
Most of all
I miss you
(and babybear)