Today, Bear was not doing too well. He was in a lot of discomfort due to troubles with his bowels. He tells me he was able to empty them last night but this morning he felt them churning. He was still feeling badly when I left. I feel so guilty leaving him when he's in pain or discomfort but he keeps telling me that that's the way it is all the time now.
I was shocked today to see that his feet have swollen and his legs have hardly any muscles left in them at all. I could feel the bones. I could even see them. Bear can no longer wiggle his toes and is pretty much paralized from the waist down.
The resident doctor came by and told Bear that hopefully tomorrow the physio department will have his chair ready. This will mean that he will be able to leave the bed and have a change of scenery. I think this will give him some hope again, you know?
Hopefully this week we will find out more about palliative care facility. I think that is also going to make a difference in his quality of life. He is so depressed with everything right now. Understandably so, but having the same bland food. Sitting in the same bed in the same room with the only view being of other beds... it isn't good for the mental well-being.
Yesterday, he received a new bed. It is called an Air Bed and I guess the mattress has air in it that readjusts itself on a regular basis so that the body isn't laying on the bed in the exact same manner for long periods of time. Bear tells me that he is much more comfortable on this bed than the standard bed. His discomfort now has nothing to do with the bed, whereas before the bed was adding to his discomfort.
Please continue to pray for my husband and pray for me. I have a difficult time praying and I fear that my words are not being heard.