Friday, July 10, 2009

my computer crashed but I'm back now

Sometimes I feel like everything happens at once and I really don't know how to deal with it anymore. I have not started looking for a job (and am still debating about going back to school because of all the problems I'm having even getting that settled) because I know that having to leave my house every day for 8+ hours would just make things worse. Of course in the maintime I am watching my bank account dwindle (although I am not in danger yet so I have not begun to panic yet, but I know that this can not go on forever)

Anyway, money aside, it seems like all these little things are keep happening, fueling my anxiety and grief. For example, I have had to return my hearing aid several times to be fixed and it keeps breaking. I got it fixed again yesterday and hopefully this time the problem is solved for good but I continue to have anxiety that any moment it will stop working again. My laptop crashed (but is now, obviously, fixed again because I'm here blogging) and I got sick with a nasty cold/flu last week which is still hanging on a bit. To make matters worse, I suddenly realized that I was not just feeling hot from being sick, but my a/c had quit. The fan was still spinning so I didn't think anything of it. When I finally felt a little better and decided to do a load of laundry, I noticed the a/c was foaming when I went to hang the wet laundry outside to dry.

So these smallish things (small in the grande scheme of things) are adding up and driving me absolutely mad. Not to mention that my bank account gets hit with extra expenses.

I am not trying to complain and be a whinny whinner but how am I supposed to deal with the big things with all these smaller things causing problems?

I'm sure it was like this before my husband got sick too but I could share the burden of small things and not deal with it all on my own.

On the upside today is 2 years since we adopted our dog. She is my healer and I am so lucky to have her. (can't say the same for her though.) I just wish her daddy was here.

1 comment:

forwardtumble said...

Hi Ter

I'm glad you're back. Missed you.

much love