Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Busy

The last few days have been busy for me. I've had my appointment with family doctor to get a stress leave note and I have met with the lawyer to get the ball rolling on that.

Today, I spent most of the day waiting for the furnace guy to come which in the end he called to reschedule. Go figure.

But I did manage to go spend a little time with Bear. He said he was fine but I am not entirely sure I believe him. He was very quiet and spent alot of time staring off into space. It looked to me like he was trying not to cry.

He has an infection in his throat which he is being medicated for. This may be why he is having trouble eating. He was complaining about being hungry but being unable to eat. Even water hurts his throat to swallow.

His foot has swollen up almost beyond recognition. He has lost so much muscle in his legs and hands.

I fear he is giving up. And I'm not ready to let him go.

9 comments:

Shell said...

Just a quick comment to let you know - I haven't prayed in a long time but I have been for you (especially tonight after this post). My thoughts are (still) with you...

Jo said...

More big hugs, Sis! I know how difficult it is to be ready to let a loved one go. I had that problem with my dad. When I finally came to grips with the fact that he was going to die, regardless, it was a little easier to deal with. One night at the hospital, while he was sleeping, I told him that it was OK to go. I felt such a sense of peace after that.

Not that it made his death any easier.

You may never be ready to let him go. Either way, it's not going to be easy. Just like with Tyla, you'll never forget.

I wish I had more comforting words to share with you. I'm here for you anytime you need to talk... know that.

HUGS!

Monica said...

You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you and your husband.

Sarah C. said...

I wish I had words of advice. I can't begin to imagine what either of you are going through. Continuing to keep you in my prayers. I hope you feel God's loving hands around you and the love many of us are sending from far away. ((HUGS))

Susan said...

You're in my prayers.

Vanessa said...

We are praying for you, that the peace of the Lord will be with you both at this time. I am so sorry to hear what you are going through.

Totallyscrappy said...

I'm praying that your hubby's spirits will lift. May God continue to put people in your path to bring comfort and relief in the midst of your troubles.

Annalien said...

I don't really know what to say, but I wanted you to know that someone on the other side of the world is thinking of you and praying for you. May you both find the strength to continue.

Joc(e) said...

*sigh* He is going through so much. Thinking of you both, as always...(((HUGS)))